I really need to decide what will my occupation be for the rest of my life. High school is going by so fast.

Sometimes i just want to get lost, get stranded on some deserted island. I want to escape reality. The stress of family responsibilities, everyday plans, and the need to stay in contact with friends. Lately all have been catching up to me. It’s hard to sit in silence without being disturbed. I just wish i would be able to sit on a beach to only hear the constant waves crashing on the shore or the occasional birds chirping. I just wish i can escape from my home, the village, the entire civilization. The silence and the fact of being alone in reality in nature maybe able to cleanse my mind from all the problems and stress. Maybe not really alone, a partner will do.

Suddenly all my days are coming and going too fast. I miss out on events and plans. It leaves me unprepared. I’m growing up too fast. I have accomplished little for my benefit. I even had lost time for sleep.

Whenever i make a new friend i grow this small fear on the back of my mind; a fear that a two month’s time we will be strangers again. In the past, i attended a pretty big school and practically you could meet someone new everyday. Getting to know many of them and leaving an impact in each other’s lives. But at one point, they’ll lose effort in keeping touch. There’s no time to talk, no time to hang out, and there will be that empty space in your life. It’s easy to make friends, but i guess it’s hard to stay friends.

On the surface, she may not look much, but i’m able to see as much. She is soft-hearted, well grounded to her religion, family, and friends. Excels in her studies but humbles when she reaches her goal. She has one of the most lovely eyes i have seen. A nice circular shape with a dark tone but they’re able to sparkle joy into my day. She is the sun’s reflection, the moon’s projection. She has voluptuous cheeks and a luminous smile to go with. Her style is simple and  obsequious. Her hair has the tone of dark brown. She doesn’t mind when her hair doesn’t fall perfectly and you would be able to tell she flaunts her appearance yet she does not crave for compliments unlike most appealing girls. Yet that is all in first glance.

She has a distinct attitude that you wouldn’t fall in love at first conversation, but in time you’ll be able to grow in love with it. I’ve only learned a few broken moments from her past but through her character, she is happy and can nearly be care-free as the second person. She has a wonderful voice and sings when she pleases. She has abstract thoughts and is able to acknowledge the smallest details. You have to work into a conversation with her but she gives a good effort. She enjoys the humour, sarcasm, cheesy lines, anything for a good laugh. Her laugh is able to get you all giddy on the inside. She doesn’t really need to be with a crowd yet is polite when approached for some time to be spent. She is well mannered when needed to but is able to feel comfortable around you when you open up. I would have simply described her as beautiful and amazing personality but that would be an easy way out of describing a lady unique in her stature. 

lol~

lol i don’t know if this guy is joking or something but he used a pickup line to get my number

it’s like today i’ve been getting back in touch with people i lost touch with l0l

On the first day and i’m given something to write about.. l0l

So apparently she hit me up, again, and i was hoping she wouldn’t. It’s that type of person that you’d always have a soft spot for, that was me months ago. She would come by now and then, and bring up the memories and promises. I can’t believe i gave in. I’m just one of her guys in her list of guys to just play around with. Then during the conversation, we asked each other about our summers, and that’s where we pretty much started, summer. Just last year, meeting on the internet then we clicked. Talking everyday, calling each other names, then we pretty much know. How she said she was going to have her vacation here, but apparently not. Then i see her saying the same things to other guys, divorcing me on Facebook and engaged to another guy. It was so plain to see, a player, but later that summer i still gave in. But tonight i’m a different person, and i’m completely done. Just make the convo awkward and it died slowly. Like all her chances with me. l0l okay~

l0l this is my 2nd 2nd blog.